Monday, April 02, 2007
********************

I realised that people still visits this page and it kinda surprises me since it hasnt been updated since last year. I can still remember clearly in my head when i typed the previous entry. It's too vivid, too sad.

Ok. Im back in Singapore at 20 with 8kilos of weight gained. I miss Aussie very much, even though the food made me fat. Cant wait to get back there for one million reasons (: Without a doubt, i've changed. Heaps, in fact. Basically, school's over and i've been bumming around, seeing a different eye to life. If u are wondering if im gonna get a job or further my studies, the answer the the questions is Yes. I will find a job real soon so i can support my expensive indulgements. Uni will begin for me next february, and no, im not furthering in horticulture. All i can say is i wasted 3 years of my teenage life and it's not too late.

I was depressed for a while when i first got back. I learnt the news of Rocky's death (Yes, Rocky is dead and i was absolutely shattered) and i had to deal with being away from my boyfriend. For some reasons or another, maybe my trip to Aussie was a bad idea. I lost both my dogs, (Faye's with a new owner who dotes on him) and my close to perfect relationship with Clay. Anyway, i've grief enough for my lost and im over the cry-to-sleep-every-night days. I do think abt all the beautiful times every now and then.

For the past month, all i did was party, drink and get high. It's still ongoing and im enjoying every bit of it. Social life's been over the top. My close friends will know best abt it, becos i cant shut up abt who i met and all when i meet up with them. Apologies friends! Ultimately, im happy with the way my life is. So fortuitous.

I changed my mind abt uploading pics cos i dont know how this shit works, just doesnt come out right.
Sorry, no photos. (but i'll jus post a recent pic)


desuetude 2:27:00 AM


____________________________________________________________