finders keepers losers weep
down on e streets
i watched u on e avenue
while other girls were having you
i think tht u shld let ur caged bird fly
n kiss ur past gd bye

i've been so lost i must confess
i've had my share of loneliness
but yeah it's hard to keep a good man dwn
e loves u lost were all in vain
e past lives on inside ur brain
i dont think u need those memories
hangin round

gd bye
kiss ur past gd bye
u've gotta let it fly
n if tht bird dont fly away
theres just one thing i got to say

its later than a deuce a ticks
ur broken heart, it needs a fix
u're feedin off a high tht wld not last
n people they dont seem to care
n sorry just dont cut it
it seems to me u're gettin nowhere fast

kiss ur ass gd bye
kiss ur past gd bye
theres no more tears to cry

things juz hav to b lyk dis?
so many qns, so little ans.
its ok.
-going gone

oh, im lookin forward to da night. ECP off.
im nt gg home till i lose my voice. lol

desuetude 9:52:00 AM

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i gave in to e stress in life
i cant escape
e pressure seems to get me down

its like a needle in my spine
it stings inside
poisons me with time
i cant deal with ur lies

i wish i cld watch u drown n die
and take my time
its always been a problem, cant u c?
i dont get.

people have said im nt ok
i lost my mind
numb me till i wont feel pain inside

desuetude 5:33:00 PM

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JOKE OF DA DAY

cindy [ my boss' wife] : no-wei-na, can u help me push da cart in?
[hmm, do i see pple luffin at that?]

when i heard that, i almost laugh out loud. knowing that i'd only embarrass her n myself, i remained expressionless n replied, 'ok.'

apparently, i think she meant it to be novena i think. her pronounciation aint gd. well, she aint well educated. yea, but who cares. she's nice. hahaa. wad happened was totally hilarious to me. seemingly, no-wei-na sounds like winona?

anyway, pple in da ofc cant seem to get my name right. is there something wrong with my name or their tongue or watsoever? priscillia calls me winora. emily calls me winola. ms goh calls me winonah. n i mean we-no-NAH, when its suppose to be we-no-ner. florence calls me miss, little woman. some other simply calls me little ger. isnt it amusing? xiao nu-ren. lol

desuetude 10:29:00 AM

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crushed and fallen,
wings torn apart.
laying on the ground,
staring into space.

rejection hovers
like a menacing storm;
out to engulf,
out to smolder.
my wound that does not heal.
my heart sings a different tune.

i crave for your touch,
your kiss and your heart.
this i dare not tell,
for mine, you'll never be.

desuetude 7:17:00 PM

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ytd was grt. out with jas. din realise i miss her company so much. hahaha. jas, when r we gonna do it agn? nex wk? following wk? i wana go queensway. wahahaha. watchd 'win a date with tad hamilton'. nt too bad, but e ending is juz something u wld expect.

dis morning, a guy stayin at my blc offer to share his umbrella with me while walking. hw nice. if im heter. i wld consider him. lol. well, which soul in sg is kinda enuff to share his/her umbrella with someone when its raining so heavy. he made sure i din get any rain on me at all? -smiles

emotions are elastic
they stretch out n back
sometimes they just snap
they cant go back
they can nv go back

i stand up n im pushed back dwn
and every opinion now
it makes me feel inhuman
giving in n giving up

dont tell me its time to go
my watch is too slow
pls, i dont wana know
baby what will it hurt
if i stay on tonight
and bring yourself to me
girl, i think u shld knw
im nt letting u go.

desuetude 8:49:00 AM

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fuck you.
lies.
and more lies.

i aint on a highway.
stop me,
i can still turn back.
dont let me go further.

desuetude 1:46:00 AM

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i miss u so much potash!!
and to cabbage grass + tomato weed, we'll meet up soon?
tomato, ur visa n all gon be done soon. no worries.
lyk i said, attendin sch later wld means that everyone in da class will know who u r.
'oh, thats da new girl.'
lol
i miss da laughters n jokes.

desuetude 2:26:00 PM

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sugar all over my lips.
just finish my breakfast --- donut, choc milk n duno wad.
din want to eat actually.
but da cabby uncle din hav change for 50,
asked me if its possible for me to get smaller notes in ofc.
ran up n dwn.
felt reeally hungry....so.

i think im much better. at least rite nw.
e night will be better i noe.
coz i'd b meeting potash n cabbage grass- yay!
gona luff till our tummy aches, n throat dry.

lily, u better be happy ok? otherwise im nt gonna meet u. im threatening u! - hah

hey u, its me agn.
i tried to call ytd.
n da words I had,
to say to u,
somehow they all slipped away.
pls talk to me,
watever is wrong.
u knw i'd help u out.
how will i knw,
if u wont say,
wat this silence is abt?
cos i'm gg outta my mind,
n i dont think it's fair.
just when things seemed to be fine,
u changed den didnt care.
cos e least u cld do,
is to talk this through
n i'm gg outta my mind,
over u.
hey u, u havent called.
i gez u're still busy.
gez i think more of you,
than u do of me.
n dats nt hw i want it to be.
cos i'm gg outta my mind,
n i dont think it's fair.
just when things seemed to be fine,
u changed den didnt care.
cos e least u cld do
is to talk this through
n i'm gg out of my mind,
over u, yeah.
hey u, its me again.

am i suppose to take wad u said?
i think, u said that to every girl.
are those just words dat u rattle.
i wish to comprehend.
was it fantasy or reality?
do i even come across your mind.

sometimes i wonder,
wat's e point?

do u hav to be such a bitch?

desuetude 9:06:00 AM

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im nt in love
its jus a phase that im going thru
im always seekin for something new
i just cant help feeling this way
pls dont go running away

e reason is you.
im sorry to hurt.
all da pain.
i wish i cld wash it all away.
neither of us have to catch our tears.

im over.
tired of living in da dark.
feelings gone.
back to a world no one knws.
my heart aches.

2 more albums to go and i'd be done with da posting of pics. -yay

desuetude 1:00:00 PM

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i talked to my fren today. omg, shes gettin married soon. totally surprised me. i wonder where she's gona go to get da paper work done. taiwan legalise homo marriages? i wish i can attend. that'll be grt. anyway, she got my blessings. i wish my r/s wld be like hers. sweetness. envy =P

its nt over

desuetude 12:59:00 PM

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