Thursday, October 27, 2005
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I got to know this girl about 2 years back, cos one of my sec school mate told her about my blog and she added me in msn. I never know how she looks like and many things about her.

Today, very out of the blue(my engrish is so broken), i clicked on her and said hi. It's been quite a while. I would say we're like pple who get to know each other thru the irc times; internet mates.

win: heys. how u been ?
vic : hey... im doin ok. u?
win: woke up by thunder. sheeesh
vic : oh yeah... crazy storm going on
win: yes. where do u stay ?? ?
win: from where my gf is located, its not raining over there and its pretty near my place
vic : craig rd...
vic : huh, frm what i can see it looks lk its islandwide man
win: are u serious ??? craig rd is so near me!!!
win: im stayin at everton rd.
vic : yeah.... frm everton rite?
vic : ha i tot so...
win: lol which part of craig rd ? chinatown plaza ?
vic : yup. bingo.

Here comes the freaky part.

win: oh gosh. i used to stay there..... #12-03
vic : WHAT?? tts the unit that im stayin in rite nw!
win: OMG!!!! its the one where u come out frm the lift... u turn left and walk right to the end
right ??
vic : this is surreal man.

YES FUCKING SURREAL. and we went on talking about the house. the lift area, the hall, the rooms, the toilet.

I really think we are fated in a very peculiar way. My brain is rather dead to verbalise it my way so i'd jus copy and paste our conversation.

vic : u take 75 to school right? frm the bus stop @ everton's side of cantonment rd
win: yes. eh, u stalk on me ah ? or hav we met and i dont know abt it ?
vic : lol... we've met quite a few times too
win: are u serious. oh my.
vic : clay was with u once

I was having dinner with Chaos at yoshi and i was sitting jus infront of a pillar. (Imagine someone leaning against the pillar inside a shop.) She was walking towards the direction i was facing. Normally, who in the world will notice the fella behind the pillar. she turned back and coincidentally, i was lookin up and caught a glimpse of her.

So now if anytime i feel bored and want to hang out arnd my area, i've got one more company. Im actually rather eager to go to her house, the house i lived in >10 years ago.

desuetude 10:25:00 PM


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Howdy. It's 3 ish in the afternoon and I'm wide awake. I slept at 8am after watching LaPiSiaoXin cartoon and reading a few chapters of On The Couch. I did fall aslp immediately, but 3 hours later, i found myself tossing around in bed. It's weird, i thot pple lay on bed, start tossing around and slowly drift to sleep? Mine's rather haywired. Actually, i jus want to say, im pretty amazed with myself waking up in the morning(ok, its almost close to noon but its still AM.), been more than a month since i did that.

Lets come to something much more solemn.

I have a mother who never seem to give me support in almost anything i do. I know even if i dont get support from her, i'd get the most support from Hun and abit here and there from close friends. The thing is, it's jus different when it's from your parents. It's much more fulfilling and somehow drives your passion, makes you feel good about what you're doing. You get wad i mean? The support is like an acknowledgement, just like how eager couples would like to seek approval from their parents.

On top of that, my mother always let her temper get a better hold of her. She never takes time to absorb what i have to say. She listens to the first part and then she starts to build up her version of the body and conclusion as to what i hav to say. When i meant this, she relates to that. It's like a chicken and duck conversation. In a civilised way, the chinese Cheng Yu, dui nu tan qing.( loosely translated: playing piano to a cow)

When things get misinterpreted, i'd be too irritated to explain, because my protest nv seem to get to her.
Conclusion : My mother doesnt know her daugther well.

Solitude is a sign that somethings missing.

desuetude 3:49:00 PM


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Even though i hav been a very gamesome eBay shopper, i fucking got scammed.

I recieved an email from "eBay" claiming that they need me to re-update my info otherwise, they will suspend my account. (which online shopper wld want their account be suspended u tell me!) Naturally, i clicked on the link that i was supposed to go to get my "infomation undated", i logged in, into a fake login page, that any cockhead id or vagina passwords also can log in (i remember doing such a page for my Macromedia project on a made up Florist company website 2 semesters ago.).

"To resolve this problem please visit link below and re-enter your account information:

http://signin.ebay.com/ws/ebaysomthingsomthingsomething ( the link is damn convincing la, of cos dont have something something. i was lazy to follow the link, cos i cant even copy and paste from the email!)

(Try the link and hav fun logging in with any user id and password u fancy like : User id: WINONAISAFOOL. Password: SOSTUPIDSHEFALLINTOTHISSCAM.)
http://219.235.0.9/mytocc/imp/.../

If the above link is what is shown as it is in the email, i will hav doubts abt it and NOT CLICK ON IT.

To think eBay actually sent mails manymanymonthsago to me before about such scams. I admit the scam is indeed very clever. GD JOB U MOTHERFUCKER HACKER!

Because i do not want to see misused funds, big figures in the coming credit card bills, i got it cancelled and replaced. Its better to play safe. Plus, there's no glory to be a bankrupt so young.

All eBayers do take precautions.

REAL LIFE ACCOUNT! 100% Authentic News! NEVER BLUFF!

desuetude 3:43:00 AM


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Tuesday, October 25, 2005
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Hi everyone. Im lazy to blog, and i would like to share some pictures.

Showing off to me that her 'tongue' is finally longer than mine.

Tea makes you old.


It's ok to smoke cigerattes, as long as you eat or drink something good for your body to balance it like the yin and yang. (i'm still a non-smoker.)

2 very happy girls hanging out together on rough sand.

Dont so moody lay!

I let you poke your finger in my nostril ok? Clay: OKAY OKAY!!!

AHH! GOT PI SAI!!

Do you feel trippy lookin at this photo?

You let me give you a bite, i'll...............


Give you an idiot! (it's quite rarely that she looks so retarded.)

Hmmmm....... (looks) so much better here.


desuetude 12:48:00 AM


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Sunday, October 23, 2005
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I dont feel a sense of belonging. Changes arent things i really fancy but complacent isnt what i meant either. Many words i hold back, because many things i say are bad. My words hurt and if i ever let it out one day, i'd say 'Goodbye to you.'

I dont have to be sorry for being stucked up. Im no fucking pleaser.

Whore.

desuetude 11:52:00 PM


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Friday, October 21, 2005
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First of all, good morning to all early birds. To the bird especially who has been chirping outside my balcony since the sun rose.

I dont exactly have things to blog about because.... its pretty mundane. One thing, I have been extremely petty and my temper is real bad. Ok, I know my temper has always been bad but petty? WHERE GOT? I only hit back when you hit. Well, its dog eat dog. One for one(not in terms for unity).

So when pple(er...Clay) complain about my temper, i push the blame to my uterus. It's easier to put the blame on others than yourself, aint it? ADMIT IT! Im living my next 7 days with a red luscious lips below. -pouts-

This reminds myself that i need to not be lazy and get to the minimart to purchase a box of tampons. I hate the feeling, when disintegrated blood cant wait to fall onto the sanitary pad, most durin the rush hour. Oh! yy and i like to describe it in juicy details.

HAHAHAHAHAHA. Fucking gross.

I got happy things i want to share.
I managed to registered my ass for the IS classes i desired to be in. YAHOO! You know i made sure i woke up 5mins before my enrolment time. I was early of course, reason being i dont want to end up wasting 4 hours on Monday in some class that i have no passion for and have to force myself to pass motion it. (Earlier on, i got a text from Nizam telling me that he didnt get into the classes he wanted cos he woke up ten minutes late AND END UP IN SOME SHITTY MODULES!)

My heart pounded while i was doing the enrolment. The processing was slow and anticipation was there. Plus, they only offered 4 vancancies for each class at one time slot. I say, anticipation is bad for the weak hearted ones. There wasnt any Spanish class for me; but German's gd too. I got into Photography as well. ;)

I kinda regret not signing up for my EP for my French. AHHH.

I've got a very random entry here. And Im feeling typative (type-pa-tive; feeling very good typing away and have the urge to type even more) at the moment so just let me continue. I shall tell you wat i have in plan for my day.

Go to bed with Rocky till 1.30. Hurry bathe and get change. Leash unsuspecting happy Rocky (cos he thinks he's gg down for a walk.) Get Rocky in the car and off we go. *evil grins. Im so sure Rocky's heart will be fluttering wildly. 15mins later, we'll arrive at Mount Pleasant Animal Hospital. Wee...I can get to see other sick animals.

When its time for consultation, my eyes will start to get watery as i dont know now what Rocky has to go through this time round. It pains my heart badly when he has to get pricked or poked.(Previously, blood withdrawal for kidney/liver test. More previously, penetration of tubing in the peeing hole. Even more previously, X-ray. ) The all time favourite of the vet doing to Rocky is inserting a lubricated gloved finger into his asshoeeee to feel the size of his prostate. Such an all time favourite act that even Rocky himself sense it coming when he's in the consultation room. Poor baby!

I shall be back home around 4. Maybe bathe again and pack all the stuffs i need for a bash at Terence's house.

Huney Vision at 5.30 sharp!

There's rumbles in my tummy. I'll grab a bite before goin to bed. Its torturing to go to bed with a stomach that is demanding for food.

desuetude 8:26:00 AM


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Monday, October 10, 2005
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The holidays mould me into a lazy bum.

im so lazy to get out of bed.
im so lazy to meet hun.
im so lazy to bathe.
im so lazy to clean up my room.
im so lazy to make my bed (i dont think i ever made my bed in my entire life, maybe only after i change new sheets to make it look gd. honestly, wats the point of makin the bed when u wake up and only to mess it all up again when u sleep. wad a viscious cycle!)
im so lazy to make the gifts i owe hun and myself.

BUT, im not lazy to shop and eat.

Holidays practically made me waste my time away, with me sleeping past dinner time.
I dont mind if someone wants to borrow my wireless router for a while. i'd most probably spend my internet times watching movies on my spongebob tv, and if i feel artsy, i'd get on with the gifts im supposed to make (where's the sincerity?). Talkin about my tv, i still havent got the antenna to watch tv programs.

hey, anyone wants to loan me or sell your antenna to me?

desuetude 9:24:00 PM


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Im in debts!

Somebody pls help me pay them off.

Actually i can easily ask my mom for her ATM card............ i feel bad.

IF I DONT PAY UP..............








I'd just get a bad rating.
BUT I WANT THOSE THINGS THAT I BOUGHT!

Credit card shopping is much better. TSK!

desuetude 3:20:00 AM


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Sunday, October 09, 2005
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Hello to people out there, whatever you heard.
Clay and I are perfectly fine.
And NO, WE DID NOT QUARREL.

I was merely piss with her.

Pls, get the facts right.

Thank you.

Like Hun said, its jus a scratch, or a fart. Poot poot poot. HAHAHAHA.

desuetude 2:39:00 AM


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Wednesday, October 05, 2005
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FUCKING SHOCKING NEWS!
Boys executed for being gay. On Monday 19 July, Mahmoud Asgari aged 16 and Ayaz Marhoni aged 18 were hanged in Edalat (Justice) Square in the city of Mashhad, in north east Iran.

The teenagers admitted to having gay sex, probably under torture, but claimed in their defence that their crime was common and they were not aware it was punishable by death.

The Islamic fundamentalist regime in Iran enforces Sharia law, which dictates the death penalty for gay sex: variously including hanging, stoning, beheading or dropping from a high place like a tall building or cliff-top.

Prior to their execution, the teenage boys were held in prison for 14 months and severely beaten. Their length of detention suggests that they committed the so-called offences more than a year earlier, when Mahmoud was 15 and Ayaz was 17. In other words, both youths were minors at the time of the offence. Ruhollah Rezazadeh, the lawyer of the youngest boy (16), had appealed that he was too young to be executed and that the court should take into account his tender age. He was quoted by the IRIN news agency as saying that the judiciary had trampled on its own laws, explaining that the Iranian courts usually commute death sentences on children to five year jail.

Despite his pleas, the Supreme Court in Tehran ordered Mahmoud to be hanged.

Under the Iranian penal code, girls as young as nine and boys as young as 15 can be hanged.

The allegation that the boys raped a 13 year old may be a trumped up charge to undermine public sympathy for the youths. The Iranian regime often resorts to smears and false allegations to discredit people it has executed and to undermine human rights campaigns.It could be that the 13 year old was a willing participant but that Iranian law (like the laws of many western nations) deems that no person aged 13 is capable of sexual consent and that therefore even consensual sexual contact is automatically deemed in law to be statutory rape.

"Iran is a fascist-style tyranny based on a fundamentalist version of Islam. We join with progressive Muslims to denounce the fundamentalists and to support democratic and left Iranians striving to topple the Ayatollahs."

"Without an end to the fundamentalist regime, there can never be justice for LGBT people, women, trade unionists and minority religions and nationalities in Iran."

"The lack of liberal and left support for the victims of the Iranian tyranny is truly shocking. We deplore the absence of international solidarity with Iranians fighting for freedom," concluded Mr Lock.

"We are not prepared to give the violently homophobic Iranian government the benefit of the doubt. It has previously lied to justify public executions. In any case, the death penalty is a disproportionate punishment. It is barbaric and should be abolished," added Mr Isalam.

The use of torture is routine in Iran. These two boys were violently abused in prison, receiving more than 200 lashes. "Three other young gay Iranians are being hunted by the police in connection with the same so-called crime. They have gone into hiding and cannot be found. If caught, they will probably also face execution", said Mr Saeed.

Five cities in the US and Europe will stage protests against the execution of two teenage boys in Iran on charges involving homosexual acts.Dublin, San Francisco, London, Paris and Montpelier will join forces on Thursday 11 August 2005 to oppose Iran's use of the death penalty and its persecution of lesbian, gay and bisexual people. The London protest will be from 1pm to 2pm held at the Embassy of Iran, 16 Prince's Gate, London SW7 (near the Royal Albert Hall, by the junction of Kensington Road and Exhibition Road)

Fact: Iran executes lesbians and gays. The Iranian government has executed 4,000 homosexuals since 1979, according to estimates in the mid-1990s by the exiled Iranian gay rights group, Homan.

Fact: The Iranian government often pins false charges on the victims of its murderous policies in order to discredit them and discourage public protests.

Please email, phone, fax and write your protests to the Iranian Ambassador:
Tel: 020 7225 3000
Fax: 020 7589 4440
info@iran-embassy.org.uk
Iranian Ambassador
Embassy of Iran
16 Prince's Gate
London SW7 1PT

desuetude 4:59:00 AM


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Tuesday, October 04, 2005
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There is a conspiracy in my stepdad's company.

Another mishap happened to one of his cargo ships.
First, it was the pirate's attacked. Second, his ship hit on Sentosa island.
And now, one ship has gone missing!

About US 4 million of goods are in the ship. And it is the biggest cargo shipping they did in this month.

The mishap of the ship is only reported 4 hours after. God knows where its heading.....
Most probably around Malacca and Indonesia.

Alot of money has already been spent to contact media and ports to locate the ship.
The ports man will increase awareness to the loading goods, cos one thing is that, the ship has to stop for sure and, the people are after the goods for money.

OH GOD, IMAGINE HOW MUCH THEY WILL EARN IF THEY MANAGE TO SELL THE SHIP?
then again, its not that easy to sell a ship unless....................
i dont know.

The workers are actually detained. Till the ship is found i guess. Just in case the people who are behind this incident involves the workers as well. No runaway!

The mastermind shall be strangled, suffocate on filthy money and thrown into sea and all the puffer fish shall poke poke poke and the jellyfishes shall sting sting sting and the swordfish will pierce right though his ass.

Whats more? One of the business partners cheated his money. They have been friends for god so fucking long. I even worked for that guy before. And i actually brought a client for him for bunkering deals. WAH....YOU FUCKING LOSER! NO WONDER YOUR BLARDY SON IS SUCH A WEIRDO (i swear he is, we were colleagues.). KARMA WILL BEFALL ON YOU!!!!

The world of money minded cunning adults.

All will be pull through(i hope, no it will be. WILL BE.).

desuetude 11:24:00 PM


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