Tuesday, July 25, 2006
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I FOUND THE SQUARE RING.
NOW I GOT SOMETHING TO WEAR ON MY LIL FINGER!
desuetude 3:59:00 AM
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Saturday, July 22, 2006
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My eyes were teary at random timing today.
I wish i could be like Lindsay Lohan crying out her confessions of her broken heart.
I cant. I just cant. It's not so easy.
If things dont get better, im better off dead.
And i found myself comtemplating how to kill myself.
Well, if some car were to run me down, i would certainly lose my grip of survival and begone.
At least, i died in an accident.
I sound like a blardy senseless teenage loser who only wish to be dead all the fucking time.
Like.... How I wish i was dead. You know, many times, i almost died, but i didnt. I wish i was killed. How wonderful would it be? Damn. Life sucks. Fuck.
I despise people who are like that. And now, i despise myself.
It's just a fucking sad and pathetic time im having now. Never felt so depressed before. I think i need a shrink.
desuetude 1:17:00 AM
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Friday, July 21, 2006
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In this fucking ugly world, everyone should perish whether he/she deserves it or not.
desuetude 12:18:00 AM
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Wednesday, July 19, 2006
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The thing is, i dont know why im not in bed at this hour when i know i have to wake up at 6am later so i wont be late or worse come to worse, absent from landscape design class.
If i skip just once more, the school is going to kick my ass.
desuetude 2:45:00 AM
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Monday, July 17, 2006
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I just realised that i miss Baybeats totally and im feeling very sore about it.
Anyway, i was intending to start my diet today but i couldnt tahan my hunger jus by sipping the blardy juice. So i thought maybe eating some nuts will make me feel less hungry and minutes later, i found myself preparing miso and udon. While eating, my mom came home and said, " Why are you eating?" For a moment, i thought my mom found out bout my dieting. Then she added, "We're supposed to go and eat crabs remember? Call u so many times never pick up."
I didnt join my mom for dinner. Not because crabs are fattening or whatever shit, i was already full. Knowing my mom will takeaway for me, i told myself, "FUCK THE DIET."
Honestly, i never knew dieting's so fucking hard. It was already hard for me to refrain from eating french fries.
Hun was asking, "Cant u live a day without eating?"
CANNOT LA. How to survive?
Im patiently waiting for August to come so i can get my pay and spend it all away.
desuetude 2:57:00 AM
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Sunday, July 16, 2006
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Faye's so cute. He jumped onto my bed, used his paws to spread the covers so it's comfy for him to sleep on.
Good night everyone.desuetude 3:33:00 AM
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Friday, July 14, 2006
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I woke up early and decided to eat the coffee cake i bought 2 days ago. It's not in the big fridge. It's not in the small fridge. All gone. And the only time i ate it was at Spinelli's with Hun and Aunty Gong.
I tell you, i was so happy when i got the cake cos the cake redemption card could be used to redeem other cakes besides the indication on the card. All i did was top up $8.90 to get a regular size cake. =)
I shall buy another cake and keep it in my room. ALL TO MYSELF!
desuetude 6:32:00 AM
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Tuesday, July 11, 2006
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Guess what?
This loser couldnt get up for class today.
desuetude 10:14:00 PM
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Coldplay was hell good. Fantastic. Chris' voice is so beautiful, its so moving. Those of you who didnt go to the concert should give yourself a slap on your face.
We met up with Gerard and Sara after the concert and headed to Lau Pat Sat for supper. There was this guy, who resembles Chris Martin (from the backview). And Hun was praying so hard it was him. Obviously nt him la. He was eating alone with this girl. How can? I'll tell Gwyneth Paltrow. LOL
Eat. Talk talk talk and talk. We were talking about Gerard and Sara's spooky tour, things we do when we were in primary and all that....... And we ended up walking to my pri school (which was already closed since dont know how many years ago) to take a look at it becos they havent seen a 12 storey primary school before and want to see how creepy it is now (Hun was saying that on the SPI site my pri sch was mentioned.).
Well, for me, the sight of the building didnt really appear creepy to me. More of bringing back memories. 90% of the facilities were retained; still the same as when i attended P1 to P6. It had been converted into a hostel, Stamford Student Hostel, and has been closed. For what reasons, i dont know. Shall find out about it.
I want to go to the SPI site now but i damn chicken la. Hun, we read together next time in the broad day light ok!
What i should do now is to shower and get to bed. Fieldtrip to Sentosa tmr. Im still thinking if i shld head to sch and go to Sentosa with my class or head to Sentosa straight from my place since i stay <10mins of travelling time away. Hmmm........ shall depends on what time i wake up.
Good night everyone. Have u slap yourself yet?
desuetude 3:49:00 AM
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Monday, July 10, 2006
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Hun and I will be gg to Coldplay's concert later tonight. It's gon be the 3rd concert that we ever been together. Not alot but all i want to say is that Hun's being very nice to pay for all of them. Simple Plan and Avril Lavigne concerts are concerts that she will never think of going if not for me. Yet, she accompanied me and paid for my tickets. So even though Coldplay's not the standing tickets, im still content because i have a very nice gf who bought an extra ticket for me to attend.
desuetude 4:54:00 AM
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Tuesday, July 04, 2006
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I dislike the way i spend money.
and i'm eating porridge in a very ugly manner.
desuetude 4:23:00 PM
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