Monday, May 31, 2004
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shall hav a lil recap.
sat
went bencoolen.
saw some buddha thingy. if i knew,
i wont go.
i rather nt.
im not into it.
my uncle's totally obsessed with all this. insane.
came across dis toy model shop,
im looking for dat bean thingy frm da 1st series.
taylor, da guy who's there, said its still possible to find.
i was so delighted.
went to uan,
got my application filled up.
home.
out again abt 10 plus, for supper.
waited for an hour to get da food done.
gosh. i whined.
my stomach whined too.
met up with taylor for shrek 2. it was hilarious.
sun
supposed to go old folks home.
told dez im gona give those folks some kewl hairdo. lol
cldnt wake up.
only up at abt 4.
slacked at home.
out arnd 6 to pay for my package.
walked arnd with mom n tess for a while.
left them n met up with dez.
went to vie bar.
i think dats da name.
drank n chatted.
i kept on losing for da dice game.
arh....
da ratio of e no. of times i drink to dat of dez, 5:1
haha. terrible
was a good night.
met up with derrick durin lunch time to pass him da designs so we can save time ltr when im up to get them inked.
he got his band recordin ltr.
needs some time to warm up a lil b4 da recording.
yeah. chatted n all.
i like his sense of humour.
saw this real fat guy,
he said,'dat guy juz had his lunch.'
hmm, duno y he so nice.
i guess coz i was being cosiderate to his timing for his recording.
it sucks to screw it up.
he drove me back to wrk.
and will be coming to pick me up ltr for my inking session. (=
to be continued....
desuetude 3:33:00 PM
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Friday, May 28, 2004
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mom's rollin her hair.
reminds me of barbie dolls.
i duno why.
lily's down with some stuffs.
she doesnt want to tell me wad she's doin.
claiming its something clandestine
and i said, 'something illicit?'
no, dats da answer i get.
haha.
i duno why im so curious.
i guess i got my kpo-ness frm someone.
poor rocky.
now my mom keeps him in da kitchen,
his room is there anyway.
no, i dont mean da kitchen is his room.
but his room is located at da back of da kitchen.
so there's this board at da entry of da kit. to prevent rocky from coming out into da living.
he was eating, mom put da board down.
he din know, turned and ran out.
-bang- i heard da knock.
pitiful or hilarious?
desuetude 11:26:00 PM
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Thursday, May 27, 2004
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took half day off frm work[mornings]
cldnt wake up.
i dont understand hw i still cant get up early in da morning when i've been wrkin for abt 6 mths.
i shld hav been used to da routine.
i gez dis is just not da routine for me after all.
im bored.
took dis test,
chance upon it on jas' blog.
Heart of Stone
What is Your Heart REALLY Made of?
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desuetude 5:02:00 PM
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Wednesday, May 26, 2004
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prepared dinner for mom n myself.
a simple one of coz.
i cant wait to sign up to UAN.
perhaps this is one step closer to wad i want.
tmr stpdad's birthday.
and i dont even know.
all these years, i nv know his birthdate.
i only know its in may.
dats all.
i've nv gotten him any gift.
and for this yr, nthing's change.
im broke.
i wonder if we're havin dinner with him tmr.
too exhausted to cry.
i resign to the knowledge,
that anything i held dear,
would summarily be destroyed.
desuetude 11:06:00 PM
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there's something that im bitter abt.
i cant do anything to it.
its a damn free world.
i cant wait to get back home.
desuetude 5:24:00 PM
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"The only difference between a tattooed person and a person who is not
tattooed is that a tattooed person does not care if you are tattooed or not."
desuetude 2:42:00 PM
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im havin my lunch.
late for work again.
alright, nothing's new.
was browsin thru tatt designs.
saw da one i hav being featured in one of da sites. weird.
anyway, i saw so many, i wana hav, i like.
hw hw hw?
my nx tatt session's on mon.
im so lookin forward to it.
u can say,
i miss derrick[my tatt artist], pricking me with his needles.
desuetude 12:22:00 PM
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Tuesday, May 25, 2004
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i sms-ed my mom. she called.
she wont be home tonight.
she's passport-less too.
she's only gettin it back tmr morning.
gd for her, she can enjoy herself in da hotel, free from rocky and me. [we are da buggers in her life.]
gd for me, i can do wadever i want tonight.
anyone up for sleep-over?
was listening to britney's 'everytime'. its reflecting hw im feeling.
ecir, i miss u.
desuetude 12:49:00 PM
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i've been eating my cereals since 8.35am. i love POST cereals.
mom's in JB, hopefully she can come back to sg. coz apparently, they keep ur current passport when u renew. so yeah.
if its really so, she cant get outta Jb.
she was askin stpdad for one of da keys to da houses.
my stpdad, 'r u crazy? wad if something happen to u in da house? its quite isolated, and no one wld hear u even if u scream like one mad woman.
just go and stay in da hotel, enjoy urself.'
wah, i also want.
i only want to go to 1929 hotel,
not askin much. =X
hahaha.
oh rocky gona get his own room soon. lol.
duno if rocky likes da idea though,
i doubt so,
coz we will be further away frm each other! lol
but it wld b fun to decorate rocky's room.
i hav to say, rocky is gettin old.
i can see it,
he pees so frequently,
pass motion in da living.
and etc.
im fearing da day wld come soon.
i dont think so?
one thing dats still in him, he's still as active as ever!
12 hrs of slp las nite, and win's still sleepy.
- off to eat my cereals
desuetude 8:57:00 AM
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Monday, May 24, 2004
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a girl with choleric temperament, i was chafed at the waiting to renew my passport.
[im passport-less again.]
apparently, i thot i was gg to work early today coz i thot, my mom was headin to SIR.
i finally found out why there are always long queues this particular building at hill street, whenever im on my way to work.
its da damn m'sian immigration.
back to what i want to say.
ok. im totally infuriated, because,
one - we hav to queue & wait so long. just like waiting for money to drop frm da sky. all thanks to da 'tortoise-ness' in the employees. their rate of productivity is so much (5x) slower than those in Sg immigration.
yes, im singing praises of singapore.
second - when its our turn, one of da 'tortoises' said my mom cant renew her passport coz her stay in sg is only valid till 30th may, and da collection of her new passport on da 1st of june. juz 2 more days dey cant do it, cant they juz put it on priority? so, now my mom has to go to JB to hers done. it will be done in 2 days this way. still, their productivity is juz slow. SLOW. it took me a yr to get my IC done, when its jus a laminated card.
wad do u think?
third - i can renew my passport. dats one gd news, coz we din end up queuein for nothing. BUT, this time round, i need my freakin birth cert. when there wasnt a need at all previously.
fourth - went back home to get my B/c. back to da immigration, da stupid tortoise tell me, she needs my ic, when i already photocopied, and dats wad they need. no choice, ran to my mom who's in da carpark. abt 25m away.
fifth - im back there again. this time round, dat moronic tortoise said she needed my mom's ic, photocopied one. cant she tell me earlier on? fwah! back to da carpack, back to da immigration once again.
i was bumping n knockin pple to get my way thru to da counter coz im so so splenetic.
bad morning. bad day.
desuetude 1:31:00 PM
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Sunday, May 23, 2004
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my mom and i,
were at our night jobs again.
rampaging in da kitchen, (lol)
like hungry mices.
i had butterheads again.
im addicted to it.
call me weird or wadever suits.
ha.
and da mashed potatoes i made in da afternn.
i've yet to type my resignation letter.
im supposed to give 2 weeks notice.
and nw, its only a week left.
mom n stpdad asked if i've submitted.
i simply nodded, without any twinge of guilt.
something hilarious.
while havin dinner e other day,
my stpdad taught me wad to write in my resignation letter.
he said,(something similiar, i dont quite much remember.)
'open ur eyes and see this.
im going to sack you.
you will nt see me loathing in ur ofc anymore.
i do not like to get salary frm u.
i do not like workin for u.
the ofc sucks.
yes, and im off.'
hmm, actually readin e above aint funny,
its juz da way my stpdad said,
that made it seemed hilarious.
im gona be early for wk tmr,(finally)
i was lookin at my punch card on friday,
my time in were all printed in red.
not a single one black.
mom need to go to da immigration, again.
im gona get a lift frm her. (=
there's actually much more to wat i have to say.
im just too lazy to carry on.
i shall save my little energy frm typing any much longer
for my resignation letter tmr.
desuetude 11:49:00 PM
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i juz had another lizard scare.
i threw da leftovers into da bin,
lizard ran out.
win screamed.
lizard scrumbled up da window glass,
couldnt find way out.
dropped onto da sink,
traumatised even more by win's scream.
i dont know wad happened after dat,
coz i simply ran outta da kitchen.
i realised i haven been blogging abt things happening in my life.
and pple who read my blog,
dont wad my posts are all about.
they assumed.
they indeed hav good assumptions.
lol.
no matter wad it is,
all my frens who care,
im doing jus fine.
im happy. (=
oh, i visited an art gallery ytd.
marvellous.
desuetude 3:12:00 AM
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Friday, May 21, 2004
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living is simple.
it's gravity.
graviy isnt so hard.
living is simple.
its entropy.
entropy, falling apart.
im falling apart again.
living is simple
and breathing is easy.
its easy to do.
living is simple
and losing is easy.
im losing my cool.
im losing my cool again.
all will be made well,
will be made well.
is this fiction?
hope has given itself to da worst.
is this fiction or divine comedy?
where the last of the last finish first.
living is simple.
living is dying.
your mercy,
is how i believe.
living is dying.
i cant understand it.
im down on my knees,
confessing my needs again.
i've had my choices.
i've chosen today.
i've had my choices.
the choices remain.
desuetude 5:45:00 PM
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Thursday, May 20, 2004
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u've got ur new ties
i've got my old lies
u've got ur inside line
but u're never happy with wad u've got
u've come to say u want it all
but i cant say i blame u now
sometimes u got to fall before u're found
thanks for waiting this long to show yourself
because now that i can see u
i dont think u're worth a second glance
so much for all e promises u've made
it served well and now u're gone
and they're wasted on me
so much for ur enduring sense of charm
it served well and now u're gone
and its wasted on me
i guess that all u got is all u're gonna get
so much for, so much for........
do what u want if thats wad u wish
i cant see
u've got a sense
u'll find a way to make things right
can u take me higher?
desuetude 9:22:00 AM
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Tuesday, May 18, 2004
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gosh!i cant miss this again.
Linkin Park* is havin concert at da Padang on 22nd June. *chris, im lookin at u. u shld noe why. lol
oh fark, i think im in HK durin dat time? shit shit. gotta tell mom abt it. if not, i shld juz nt go HK? but, shopping n LP equally impt. =|
no way
im not stocking up
or backing out
or cracking up without
im workin it out.
yeah right
i loathe u
i hate u
i detest u
desuetude 12:53:00 PM
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Monday, May 17, 2004
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past few days been good. (=
alright, dats a puny blood sucking creature [mosquito] in da ofc. best of it, i attract mosquitos. i've got sucked thrice. lol
i went outside to take a walk
so i cld re-live memories
i thought dat u wld lend me a hand
but u were never ever there
its all in ur mind
u do wad u want to do
ur promises are all played out
u've got to wish u've worn me down
i've treated u da best i could
i realised dat i dont need u
i lost my way when u left home
i thought dat u cld change ur life
wad did i do? why did u lie?
u've walked back in
my hands are tied
its all in ur mind u do wat u want to do
its all in ur mind
u do wad u want to me
im tired
im so damn angry with u
u're not gonna change
i see who u really are
its really surprises me at times hw my words can affect one. coz they aint big long words. juz simple n short. [ok i seems to be describing myself. hmm mayb nt simple, im kinda complex, im weird. so, its juz da short part dats right. lol] be it, aspiring, enlightening or hurtful. i nv imagine that.
desuetude 9:19:00 AM
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Friday, May 14, 2004
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lying all alone and restless
unable to lose this image
sleepless unable to focus on anything but ur surrender
tuggin a rhythm to da vision thats in my head
tuggin a beat to da sight of u lying
so delighted with a new understanding
something abt a little evil that makes that
unmistakeable noise i was hearing
unmistakeable sound that i knw so well
spent n sighing with that look in ur eye
spent n sweatin with that look on ur face like
sweet revelation
sweet surrender
thinkin of you
thinkin of you
sweet revelation
sweet surrendering
desuetude 12:00:00 PM
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Thursday, May 13, 2004
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did some tests coz i was bored. da results were so true.
up in smoke u've lost another love
as u take a hit off ur last cigarette
strung out, burnt out
yeah, u're down on ur luck
and u dont give a fuck
till da best part of u starts to twitch
aint that a bitch
freak out.
im all alone nw.
i feel jus like im losin my mind
cos love is like da right dress on da wrong girl
u nv know wad u're gonna find
u think u're high and fine as wine
den u wind up like a dog in a ditch
coz love is like a wrong turn
on a cold night
aint that a bitch
in a daze
in e throes of emoition
u see god in da devil's eyes
den u fall so far frm grace
u wldnt know a kiss
if it was ur face
u can tell it to da jury
but u aint got no case
den u feel so out of place
lickin up da arsenic
frm da same old lace
u know e stuff is poison
but u gotta hv a taste
life's sucha bitch
go on or not?
desuetude 9:53:00 AM
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Wednesday, May 12, 2004
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u dont knw i am so,
u can not get close to me
n i dont knw who u are,
so jus leave me alone.
i knw u cant believe
e anxiety u're causing me
n i know u cant believe
ur fake compassion i dont need.
get away frm me,
u're standin too close.
keep ur hands off of me.
keep away frm me,
jus leave me alone,
who say u could touch me anyway?
dont try to rub my shoulders
and dont try to hold my hand.
dont try to give me a fucking hug.
u crawl on me as if i were ur very best of friends.
i dont even know ur name.
get away frm me,
u're standing too close.
keep ur hands off of me.
keep away frm me,
just leave me alone,
who said u could touch me anyway?
desuetude 10:07:00 AM
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woke up at 8. mom woke me up. 'u're nt gg wrk agn?' 'im gg.' -win closes her eyelids.
i dun feel gd today. mayb coz im officially broke. dat aint major anyway.
i wana be da one
desuetude 9:19:00 AM
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Tuesday, May 11, 2004
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cabbage's cutting her hair. hopefully, we will b able to catch out show in time. and we're only here for only 5mins. lol. im off. gon talk to da hairdresser.
desuetude 7:26:00 PM
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something dat cracked me a lil jz nw. its a conversation between my colleagues.
lee: y r u carrying am unbrella?
ivy: its so sunny outside.
lee: its yu san not tai yang san.
alrite. its pretty lame.
desuetude 1:37:00 PM
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Monday, May 10, 2004
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u said u love me.
wonderful absurd.
desuetude 7:53:00 PM
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Sunday, May 09, 2004
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new pics uploaded. go - cabbage -
e day is fine. and im fine.
desuetude 10:19:00 PM
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Saturday, May 08, 2004
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da complete.
i want e words
something u havent heard
will i find them and
will i have wad it takes to say them
in e world beside
this one there are no lies
and no suspicion
only dreams without end
u gotta feel what i mean
look into my eyes n knw
im tryin to come clean
but i stumble every time
and den e words they escape
fail to take shape
its all in e code now
come again
will u let me retract
let me take it back
sometimes my words lack
and my mind flies off e track
wad im tryin to convey is miles from wad i say
n u slip away
in life there are times
when nothing will rhyme
there are days i slip
when i knw i shld climb
breakin e vows i swore i'd never brk
a harsh word a white lie
easy to mistake
where hav u been
havent u noticed
theres no map that exists
to point us out of this
i've been tryin to transmit a feeling
i've been hopin u recieve wad im revealing
see e main thing is hang with me n relate
as we communicate watch out
fenced in lyk a dog between houses
balled up by e trouble my mouth gets
wrapped up in e things dat i dont knw
didnt i knw im wrong when u knew
u didnt hav to give me so long to see thru
nt predictable what i will do but u knw
ur body is a country
dat u knw i'll return
craving like a family heirloom
dat i am into
no, hw cld i follow everything u do
jus remember hw we touch
i feel so renewed
e first to understand me
dat wld b u
it cant wrk if we cant b open n true
e best thing to happen to me
let it be told
dat wld b e moment that u cracked my code
u gotta feel what i mean
look into my eyes n knw
im tryin to come clean
but i stumble every time
and den e words they escape
fail to take shape
its all in e code now
i cant deny e fact dat i still miss you
desuetude 10:21:00 AM
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Friday, May 07, 2004
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juz gt bac to ofc frm ica.
im only permitted to stay in sg till 4th june.
duno if my pass will b done by then.
anyway, shall tell mom abt da trip.
oh, kel, i think u will c this.
i cant go jkt with ya. mom n stpdad dun allow.
messy over there. haha. yeah 'messy'
talk abt las night. it was fabulous.
though its juz plain hanging out
eat, walk arnd, eat agn n movie watching.
cabbage grass always make my day.
haha. and her shit abt dat guy.
forgot his name. i always refer to him as 'william hung wanabe'
went alliance franciase to check out our course... lai, how? taking?
anyway, dats dis guy who did somehow made my day
n somehow, din make my day.
hahaha. duno where da hell he got my no.
calld me, chatted with him for a while coz i was freakin bored in da ofc.
he askd me stuffs abt myself, so i juz answered as if im takin a questionaire.
said stuffs dat were flattering. [tell me who dont like to be flattered? those who said no r liars!!!] but i take it n drop it.
and his 2nd call, totally frk me out. he said,' im falling in love with u.'
hahaha. crap. first thing i said to him,'r u crazy? -pause- r u really crazy?'
i like his name, why? coz its one of da characters in spongebob squarepants.
-skipped lunch again but im happy! (=
desuetude 12:36:00 PM
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Thursday, May 06, 2004
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2nd entry of da day`
things i would nv do on
- dermal punch
[its damn sick, u got a hole on yr ear juz lyk hw u punch holes for filing up papers. when u're done,u get to keep da flesh n bone of ur ear dats being punched out. memoir. so far, i haven seen anyone in sg with dat though.]
- ear cutting n scalpeling
[it saves u da hassle of enlarging ur ear lobes, go for it, if u wana enlarge them in a few mins! bloody scene involve definitely. wild double-lobe scalpelling is gross, to me]
- daith/snug/tragus/transverse/vertical piercing
[i guess im just not into piercing. its quite nice though. i haven seen trans/vertical piercing on da lobe in town]
- pierce my tongue web
[ haven seen anyone with that yet. but anyway, who wld walk arnd da streets, with their mouth open n tongues up. lol]
- pierce my nose septum
[ makes me look lyk cow, worse if u enlarge it. damn sick. saw this guy who put a pencil thru da damn hole. its not cool. waddya reckon?]
- nose-to-mouth piercing
-horizontal lip pierce
[nice. but i dun wan obstruction when i eat n kiss. lol]
- very deep naval pierce
[its as though ur belly button gon be stretch out n burst durin da procedure.]
- havin nipple sheild.
[i think bras are gd enuff !]
- stapling
[u can tell frm its name. think paper stapler]
- scarification
conclusion: caucasians take their skin like paper. im glad i din take my lunch!
desuetude 12:04:00 PM
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i feel grt today!! -cheers
anyone up for black eyed peas concert ??
contact me pls.
desuetude 9:48:00 AM
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Wednesday, May 05, 2004
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pack of lies.
im cool with it.
they no longer bother me,
they tickle.
my pals are so right.
(=
desuetude 1:02:00 PM
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Tuesday, May 04, 2004
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im sooooooo excited. lol
desuetude 5:31:00 PM
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Monday, May 03, 2004
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im sittin on e edge of e water
comtemplating my strange life
e sun starts to fall into e ground
a breeze picks up off e waves
let go of all ur pain
i knw im not alone
everyone makes mistakes
n starts to learn with time
i am content with who i am
there's nothing more i need to say
im happy with my life.
and yes, im back to da optimistic win.
lyk hw i was towards da india trip*.-grin
*potash n cabbage know.
desuetude 2:36:00 PM
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Sunday, May 02, 2004
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anyway, ytd night was grt. lyk jaz n bev said, 'our theme for da night is gay'.
haha. went to dis trans club, interesting, but its quite sick. seeing trans shakin n rubbin their asses on those guys dickies. yuck. oh, there were 2 of them who r so swt lookin. i went to askd for one of their name. e way she spk is so gentle, i kinda melted. lol. its lyk wooah...i gez i noe why straight men go there to hook some trans. they are so gentle, like some xiao mian yang. and back home, facing their wrinkled, unpowdered face wives with those auntie voices u hear at da wet markets, hw can those make them stand. haha.
oh, her name is Kiki. (=
watched beautiful boxer.
desuetude 4:58:00 PM
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Saturday, May 01, 2004
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e sky darkened
bright stars meet
who r u missing
stars in e sky tear
roses wither
cold wind blows
wanting only u to be here...
desuetude 5:44:00 PM
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